Remember how I said my new motto is "come what may and love it." Courtesy of the awesome, wonderful, amazing, humble, inspired Elder Wirthlin? Well now is the time to live it and love it. There has been some unexpected complications with my pregnancy. Baby girl is fine. She is awesome actually and this experience has made my love for her grow so much, exponentially actually. I KNOW that she belongs in our home and I can't wait the 7 or so weeks until I get to see her.
My doctor just informed me that these recent complications will be worse, like times 20 worse, with every subsequent pregnancy and when he asked me how many kids I wanted to have and I responded with, "I don't know maybe four or five." He advised me that I should for sure only have one more pregnancy after this one, and that I should FOR SURE wait at least 3 years before I even think about being pregnant again. I was shocked. I was at the appointment by myself and was not ready to hear that. I married young, I wanted lots of kids and that is all I have ever wanted to do. I realize that just because this is the case doesn't mean that we won't parent more kids, there are other ways, but I just wasn't ready to hear this, it definitely came out of no where and it was very very unexpected. I do not discount the many blessings that my Heavenly Father has blessed me with and I do not think that only having two or three kids is bad or a small number, I just wasn't planning this and if you know me, I like to have a plan, I like to know whats going to happen and I do not like to be surprised.
Last week I watch Elder Wirthlin's funeral services and he is so amazing, my favorite and I just love him dearly. He was so loving and so humble and I really gather strength from his messages. I will be fine and The Lord knows my family well and continues to bless us. This is very personal and I debated about putting it on here but I decided to because I am an open person and I just need to write things down for myself and it makes me feel better about everything. I know this is nothing compared to so many other trials that others have faced, but it is something that I have to deal with and for now I will be happy with my two beautiful girls. I cannot imagine more happiness than that.
In other happier news, baby girl has a name, which most people know and now since she is so close to being here I feel like I can finally put pen to paper and seal the deal. Her name will be
Charlotte Melissa
and we'll call her
Charlee.
I can't wait, she is mine and I am so in love with her.
10 comments:
Oh Brooke I am so sorry! That is seriously distressing news, especially to receive it all by yourself. But you're right, there is a plan and although it is different from our plans, it will work out in the end. How amazing that you were placed into the family you grew up in, where you saw such loving, wonderful examples of adoption.
Thank you for sharing. Your positive attitude in the face of heartache is so uplifting.
You already have an awesome family.
So it is Chuck. So Chuck she shall be.
Love, Dad
I'm sorry Brooke, I know that was probably really hard to hear, but heavenly father has a plan for you and who knows, you may have more than 3 kids!! I'm so excited to see Charlotte, she is going to be beautiful just like you!!
I am sorry to hear the news. But I am excited that you have a name. I love it and she is going to be adorable!! Good luck with everything, you are almost done!
I'm sorry you are going through a hard time right now Brooke :(
Hang in there. I LOVE the name Charlotte. She'll be beautiful, just like her mom and big sis!
Oops, above I was logged into my husbands account. This is Marcy btw ;)
brooke...so sorry to hear about the complications. it's always scary to hear anything like that. everything will be perfect charlee will be one sweet girl!
HOLY COW!! That is hard to hear something like that, Brooke! You are such a strong, grounded, spiritual woman and I know that you can handle this. You will be fine cause Heavenly Father has great things planned for you and your family. I can only imagine how scary that was to hear, but you will get through this...shining like always. I can't wait to meet little Charlee. She is going to be fantastic!
Brooke... I am so sorry to hear this. It was inspirational. I hope you are doing okay. Trials can be so hard. This world is deifnately not for the weary. You will be strong. My prayers will be with you guys. I remember hearing this same thing after I was pregnant with my first son Isaac who passed away and it was the hardest news. Just remember, doctors don't always know everything. Heavenly Father knows ALL and has a plan for you and your beautiful family. I remember going to the doctors during the pregnancy with Jackson and not having any complications at all after all I expected from Isaac.
Didn't your mom have similiar problems after Chelsea? Well if you need to talk, I would love to chat about all of this. I am familiar with trials. Too familiar and luckily love to listen to others who have to deal with them because sometimes all you need is a listening ear because the Lord has all the solutions. My best advice is to never loose sight and faith in Him. Faith and Fear never mix despite how hard it is.
I love you guys. I also love that you are naming her middle name Melissa :)
Love,
Melissa
sorry for the long comment. longest I've ever done
I need to talk to you...I just read your post! I love your name you chose! So sorry things are not going as planned
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